Hi guys! I hope you all are having a wonderful week so far.
You guys know that this blog is mainly an informative one, with me posting very few personal posts and having the majority being tutorials or how-to’s. Well even though I started this blog to teach others out on topics I have knowledge on, another reason I fell in love with blogging was because of the community. It’s so amazing and such a blessing that I have viewers of all ages from different parts of the world reading what I write, so sometimes I feel like sharing something deeper than entertainment recaps and outfit inspirations ( as much as I love doing those). In fact a week ago, I was telling a close friend that I was in a current state of confusion. I didn’t know what direction I wanted this blog/site to go in. I told him that as much as I loved sharing beauty tips and topics that the average blogger covers, it just didn’t feel 100% like me. Looking at my posts, I even feel like a stranger myself- reading something written by an unknown girl behind a computer screen.
Recently I’ve been taking some time to dwell on the term self expression. Of course, that’s an extremely broad word, and could mean so many things to so many different people. To me, self expression is doing what I love. That includes music– singing, writing, playing; blogging–writing posts, designing, coding, promoting; and also in a way, exercising– running, doing Pilates, dancing. . . You see? So many ways to define who “Keliee” is and yet on this blog- something I started to express myself, I’ve found myself turning into someone that’s not 100% me. I know this may sound like a load of crap to you guys, but what I’m trying to say is that I feel like it’s time to give this blog it’s final touches. And those final touches are sprinkles of me. Of my personality, of my voice, of my thoughts and rambles. Not just diary entries of where I went and what I did over the weekend. I actually want to talk to you guys out there. Because ya’ll are my friends too. 🙂
“This isn’t professional”
“Other blogs stick to one topic”
“No body gives a crap about what you feel like talking about.”
If any of those thoughts are scrolling in your head right now, I have a simple fix for that. Click that little x button right up at the top right and remove yourself from my stats. 🙂
For a while now, I’ve stuck to a motto that had truly impacted my life: “I like to surround myself with people that bring positivity in my life. If they don’t, I remove them from my life.” It took me a while to figure that out, but in the end I found the strength to do that. People are toxic. But you have the power to remove that. It may be bitter, but through time, you’ll realize that your life is seriously sweeter than it was without that person in your life.
This year has been one where I’ve truly changed my perspective and views on so many things. A big change I’ve noticed is that my mindset is truly at peace now. By that I mean I now think of things in simpler ways. Being a person who once complicated everything, this was a huge leap in my book. Think of it this way: People are just people.Think of it however way you will- fish in a tank, objects that inhabit space, kids in a classroom that will be out of your life by the time graduation rolls around. . . Before, I didn’t think this way. When I would accidentally say something wrong or stupid to someone, I would stay up late at night replaying that scene and mentally pounding myself in the head going “why why why would you say that?!” When I felt that a teacher disliked me, I would think that it was the end of the world. Or when a teacher was being unfair to me, especially. Or when I felt extremely dumb when I couldn’t understand what was going on in science class and when the teacher returned my quiz with a big fat ‘F’ on it. Those things mattered so much to me before.
But now they don’t. Does that make sense? It’s like I now know that those things really don’t matter. Forgot to bring my homework to school? Yeah, I’m disappointed in myself. But there’s nothing I can do about it- I can’t fly home and get it. Once, that would ruin my whole day and I would spend the morning stressing and freaking out. Now, I only embrace the fact that I forgot to bring it to school and accept the consequences with a calm and collected mind. Stressing is tiring. . . so why do it?
I feel like a contributor to this mindset has actually been food. Inspired by raw vegan Youtubers and instagram accounts, I’ve fallen in love with fruit over and over again. I love filling my body with fresh greens and fruits, nourishing myself with pure, raw, organic goodness. If you haven’t seen it yet, check out my post on ‘Steps to a Healthier and Happier Lifestyle’ here. It really does make a difference. I feel more energized and rejuvenated, ready to tackle anything life throws at me 🙂
So in a nutshell, I just wanted to tell you guys I want to do more posts like these. Just me going on about whatever’s in my head, or just spilling my feelings ( in moderation though). I know this is different from my usual blog posts, so if you have no interest in getting to know me better, rest assured I will still be doing those quite frequently. I would love to have these kinds of discussions with you guys, so feel free to comment down below your thoughts and feelings. We may even have things in common! ^^